Claustrophobic

Claustrophobic

Please don’t close the lid just yet.  It scares me to think that very soon I will be in here confined to this very small space and all alone.  The lights are still on, I can see them.  I can see you. 

It has been quite a ride, this life.  There were the wonderful highs and a few devastating lows.  I remember many of the people whose life-path crossed mine, those through whom God has blessed me.  I remember their love and compassion.  I hope they remember mine.

I have a few regrets, things I wish I had done differently.  I hope God will permit me to forget them.  I hope God will allow me to remember only the good.  Like our wedding and the births of our children and grandchildren.  Like the travel we enjoyed, the places we have seen.  The experiences we have shared.  The cultures we have visited, the people different from ourselves. 

Life’s storm is nearing its end, the calm after should soon be here.  But don’t close the lid yet.  I have a few words to say.  Breathe in, breathe out, repeat.

Thank you for being a part of my life, of helping make me who I am.  Thank you for your sage advice, your humor, your kind words. Thank you for being there when I needed you.

The world will go on, it will not end.  Do good and bless those you can.  Be kind even to those who are difficult.  God has given you everything you need to accomplish His will for you 

I can smell the rain and feel it on my face; my heart feels the warmth of the Son.

I see Jesus coming for me; my parents and children are with him.  He is coming to me with an unbelievable look of compassion on his face.  He gives me peace. 

I crave to hear his words, “Come, good and faithful servant.  It is done.”

You can now close the lid, I am no longer alone.